what the bleep and whole bloody class reflection dohicky

Ok here we go on the massive reflection of the semester/movie we watched reflection. First off as I was watching the movie I began to think about my final project mainly on the how we can change over time due to emotions part. If emotions have such an effect on people is my identity my personality or just the mood I am in at the time. Is the way I feel about my identity weather good or bad going to make people shitty. Well hers what I believe on that the answer is sometimes are my emotions so powerful that the people who have known me for years are all of the sudden going to hate me when I am in a bad mood uh no. If this was the case nobody would really ever be able to have friends thus in most situations your identity stays separate from your emotions. On the other hand this is where the sometimes comes in if you’ve never met a person before and you’re in that same crap mood the identify/personality the other person identifies with you will be severely skewed. This of course works both ways so lesson of this small part don’t be in a bad mood on first meetings. There in one thing I’ve gotten out of this course that I didn’t except to get. What is that well the course is has taught me to stop trying to hide behind a mask and just be me. Quit trying to be a perfect student that never goes outside the box if someone doesn’t like them well screw them I am me you don’t like then tough this is what you get. Of course I am random so this isn’t in the order that questions were asked but one thing I really super disagreed with the movies on is the idea that a human can will something into being. First off do I believe in magic yes do I believe that humans are gods capable of willing a fancy car into being just because they willed it HELL NO. we are not gods we can never be gods we can finally gain access to stuff that would be considered magic or sorcery but we’ll never be a god. A god can create a soul even with the most advanced technology and perfect understanding of quantum physics we will NEVER be able to comprehend what the soul is. The soul is beyond the realms of reality and perception and thus we will never be able to fully understand it. Thus we cannot be gods. How will this movie impact me in the future well one I will be more aware of my emotions in general I didn’t know that they would have such a powerful affect and professionally well I want to create worlds now I can create them with the knowledge that its possible they may exist. This means all my dreams and fantasies could become true threes nothing to say everything that lies in the realm of the never there can’t really exist! Another thing the movie mentioned was nothing ever touches anything, first off that’s not true nuclear fission and fusion they touch for sure,  but that means that pain is an illusion and the sense of touch is an illusion.  I was trying to figure out how it works in my head until my right brain came and slapped my left and said quit trying to figure out why things can fit logically and go with it. This movie believe or not brought up a huge thing that I’ve always fought and that’s letting my creative side work without being constantly interrupted by my logical side this movies basically said reality is perception so does logic exist this little fact will allow me to better fight off my logical inquires on everything and just go say it is what it is who gives an f weather or not it logically makes any sense. This movie and final project setn me into full soul search wtf mode I had no idea at first what I was answering or what the hell I was doing in general this class in general made me really look at the world and my self. I had to break out of what I would normally do and think actually think what  a concept I know I’m capable of thinking I just never really did it. I’ve spent years and years in my bubble and finally I was able to break the damn invincible thing and start thinking deeper. This deeper thought you could say really is what helped my critical thinking, and now that I no longer feel the need to be logical all the time or fit in and do what other wish to see I can finally find the creative approach to something. Hell I guess that was the improvement in my creative exploration or as Beth says exloration  lol typos. All hail the elves, yes that was a random phrase to see if you actually read these things >.>

whats going to happen i hope

I think the reaction to this fear project (don't want to give details) will be that everyone will be on edge if not scared. If not those at least they will have a since of what people went through in the past.

The experiment
Simple Really put everyone in complete darkness (primal night) run some primal sounds begin to give speech on how humans have developed technologically to push back our innate fear of the dark. i'll slowly bring in light and examine the crowds reactions. this is how it was supposed to work in theory anyways in all reality the thing completly fell apart. first off couldn't seem to completly get it dark. This led to a constant laughter which isn't what i was going for. A few people where on edge but not the entirty of the class.

how to fix or improve
This is simple really
step1
Get it Truly completely dark
step II
have my equipment setup externally so i can see
stepIII
have a much better audio system to project sounds
step IV
have a simulated fire and a real lamp to better show progression

The project that impacted me the most was the one involving the person (yes I'm that bad with names) who described his life story on how he used to do drugs and cut himself. why do i find this most Memorable simple he really put me in a very crappy mood and got the most powerful emotional response from anybody. How did it make me feel on my project mine failed no response his succeed uber response.

creating happy bliss meh to many words

hmm... a time in my life i was really happy when i created something. well there was that very large 747 model i absolutely was happy when i finished that thing.

from young to old REAL OLD

what would I do with a paperclip when I'm 55 well simple i would be a cheap bastard and use it as a fuse. Yes a fuse not a paperclip. If i was 55 and no thinking creatively still I would hate my self so hears to short blogs and oh yeah cheap ways to fix ur carz.

back 16 years ago there were paper clips

OK so 5 year old mentality paper clip project spent 2-3 days thinking and thinking and thinking hitting nothing but brick walls and some concrete ones. then about halfway through the week I realized wait 5 year olds don't think for days they just wing it. so I winged it like I would of when I was 5 and came up with a well paper clip shrapnel device no explosives and it doesn't harm anything. its uber hard to explain in writing sooooo.... you the demonstration is where its at for this one. Don't worry this is an old honey free project.

The true warrior needs not his sight

Yep this is the assignment in which we ignore sight. for this one i was going to do some hey read this poem by touching and feeling the Morse code... then I realized something most people don't know how to read Morse code. So I was freaking out going oh crap what to do. then when at work I reached underneath a car seat and felt something sticky and went SOB WTF ><!!!!! then it hit me or stuck. I decided to gather a bunch of different things to touch blindfolded and then ask the victim... I mean volunteer what did that make you feel.

Tuesday SURPRISE

first of yeah I know its for Monday but lunch lady always says TUESDAY SURPRISE and gives you a heap of the same nasty crap they always serve you. This is not Tuesday surprise thankfully, our stomachs are no longer screaming i'm going to die, this is the blog for my SURPRISE (yes all caps every-time muhaha). This project is going to be more of a metephorical one than a literal one. First i was planning on sticking a mirror into a shoe box with other mirrors to produce that really neat infinite room effect. that was going to be the SURPRISE but then as time went on I kept thinking that this is really cool but not really a SURPRISE. so I was at an impasse then one day I was really tired ( which means many odd things might happen...) I just got out of the shower and was starring into the mirror. This is where I had thinking moment, as I stared at myself I thought about where I've gotten in life and was SURPRISED that I've managed to make it at all considering all that I've gone through. This was my SURPRISE so I've kept the mirror in a box to allow for maybe just maybe another person to experience the same SURPRISE that I did. So how is this more than what it appears... Easy we are all more than we appear and should always remember to look deeper than what we see in the mirror. Also to have a plan B I have this >.> >>>>>http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oHg5SJYRHA0&feature=fvst<<<<<<<<<<<